i left off my last post saying that, yes, i indeed was missing home. (shocker to all of us) let me explain a little more before everyone has a panic attack and thinks i am not completely enjoying myself.
at the family party, i realized that it was so similar to ours, yet so different. usually, we always eat spinach dip, thanks to momma, the grownups talk about people they knew when they were younger and the children, me riss and natalie, just hang out and make fun of our family :D love ya guyss
well i didnt have that
and i miss it.
i miss hearing harry potter the moment i wake up becuase natalie is obessed. i miss having tea with momma on the backporch. i miss talking about girlie books and movies with risss. i miss seeing dad walk through the backporch with his dirty boots and then get yelled at.
i miss that.
my world has completely changed
for the better
i feel as if my life is spilt into my "old world" and my "new world"
my heart belongs to both brasil &united states that its difficult sometimes.
i have sucha strong bond with all the exchangers. i cried when i had to say goodbye to them, when i knew i would see most within the next month. but that didnt matter because when you spend everyday all day with your best friends, you cantt bare to leave them. i couldnt imagine not hearing grace's jokes, having a headache each day because i heard english, portuguese, danish, french, chinnese, german, and every language in between, i wanted to seee sebastain everyday and call him baby and hear the aussies talk in their gorgeous accents.
i refuse to say goodbye to them, ever.
i am always smiling about the past, laughing at the present, and looking forward to tomorrow..
(that deserves to be written down by someone, mann am i poetic)
i just have to keep reminding myself this:
before i came here, all i could do was think about brasil, talk about brasil, plan about brasil, dream about brasil, jump up and down about brasil, cry over brasil, laugh about brasil.
welll now ariana, its time to live brasil !
so yess i miss you guys back home,
but just because i love you alll so much
